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So long. [18 Jan 2008|12:51pm]
I haven't written in here in so long.

A million things have happened.

I'm getting married... what the hell? I mean, it's amazing and wonderful and I am beyond excited and happy about it. I just honestly never thought I would be saying that... marriage - weird. I hated marriage, but I met someone who flipped my world upside down in the most amazing way. Don't tell me I'm naive or too young... I'm happy with my life. Wee!

I'm unemployed... what the hell? Ha. I'm running a business this summer. Pretty awesome. I need to find a job until then. To bad my degree gets me zero dollars. I want to be a social worker. Grad schoooooool.

Ummmm.... I fell the other day... in the shower. Bummer. My ankle is not feeling so great. I don't think it's broken, and I really don't want to go to the hospital.

As for this exact moment in time, I'm contemplating a shower and starting my day.

I miss Boston friends... and non-Boston friends. Can I rewind like 3 years? No no, I don't want that. I like right now.
2 kisses| ::kiss me blind::

[14 May 2007|08:01pm]
I just graduated from college.

Holy crap.

Joe and I move in together tomorrow.

I get my new car tomorrow.

Life is wonderful.
2 kisses| ::kiss me blind::

Sleepy, busy, silly. [08 Apr 2007|05:34pm]
[ mood | isn't it spring? ]

Here I am, sitting on my couch, avoiding the paper I should be writing.

I'm almost done with my student teaching - gonna miss the kids so much.

I'm looking for a subletter - hoping to find one this week.

Moving in with Andrea, Ani, Colin Friend, some random guy, and my love Joe in 37 days.

Graduating next month. Crazy.

Tonight is the Open Mic fundraiser for JQUS - I hope people show up!

Until next time, folks.

::kiss me blind::

[15 Feb 2007|08:14pm]
February vacation cannot come soon enough.

Student teaching is misery... mostly.

I'm exhausted.

I love Joe.
::kiss me blind::

In love. [30 Jan 2007|09:52pm]
[ mood | happyface ]

Things are much better than the last time I made a puzzling and depressing post.

I'm so in love and it's amazing.

I'm happy.

I start student teaching on Monday... TERRIFYING but EXCITING!

I truly love the friends who will always be there for me no matter what.

Andrea. Joanna. Heidi. I love you.

And I love Joe (clearly)... He is my world.

2 kisses| ::kiss me blind::

Confused as all hell... [20 Jan 2007|11:33pm]
[ mood | cold ]

Misery is consuming me.

I'm home but I could be in Boston, but I want to be home, but maybe I should be in Boston.

I really should stop thinking about the future, but I need to think about the future.

I'm terrified about the future, but I want it to hurry up and get here.

I make no sense sometimes.

I cry a lot.

1 kiss| ::kiss me blind::

ALMOST! [14 Dec 2006|12:49am]
[ mood | i want to sleep for days ]

I don't remember what it's like to be healthy.

I have so much crap in my sinuses - I think the world hates me.

Almost done with classes... one paper left to write.

Student teaching + directed study = never sitting in an Emerson classroom again after tomorrow.

Going to Joe's company Christmas party on Saturday. :)

Dropped my favorite bra in the toilet today. :(

I want it to be Christmas. SO BAD.

I miss my family.

I baked cupcakes tonight and watched Pulp Fiction... stress relief.

::kiss me blind::

[07 Nov 2006|01:41am]

Josiah Quincy Upper School - High school/middle school on Arlington Street.

I spent a wonderful weekend with Joe in New Hampshire.

I want to graduate and start my big kid life.

I'm quite optomistic.

It's a good feeling.
1 kiss| ::kiss me blind::

[31 Oct 2006|01:47am]
I miss my boyfriend.

I need to find a place to student teach.

I have two jobs now.

I have to teach fifth graders tomorrow.

It's Halloween tomorrow.

My apartment is freezing.

I'm sleepy.

I wish I could be on Cape Cod.

Wishing to be on Cape Cod is weird for me.

Why can't I be like... 7 again?
1 kiss| ::kiss me blind::

Things. [05 Oct 2006|11:08pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Looking up graduate programs in Drama Therapy.

Found one that I like.

Looking for a school to student teach at.

Have not found one that I like.

Joe comes to visit soon.

Heidi's kitty is missing.

Fi is the best cat ever.

She'll come home.

I feel like a grown-up.

Freakin' weird.

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This might not make sense. [26 Sep 2006|11:28pm]
[ mood | huh? ]

Life is confusing.

Boston Renaissance Charter, look out.

So excited to teach.

So pissed the MTELs cost $90 for the first round and $120 for the second round.

Don't want to fail the MTELs.

Headaches and nausea all the time.

Stressed the fuck out.

I don't know where I will be in 5 years.

I don't really want to know.

::kiss me blind::

Survey. [11 Sep 2006|01:16am]
[ mood | please, let me just stare ]


::kiss me blind::

Letter to Heidi. [04 Sep 2006|03:55pm]
Hello you, Heidi Jean Bolinder-Tottenham (is that how you spell it?)
Here I am in my new apartment... all alone.
Joe left this morning and I cried a lot.
You need to come visit me. I have food. And a TV.
Tilly and the Wall would be fantastic. We really should do that.
I will make you the Polyphonic Spree goodness as soon as I locate my stereo.
I miss you and love you.
Yours with Cambridge love,
1 kiss| ::kiss me blind::

[30 Aug 2006|11:28am]
Haven't written in this thing in so long.

I miss Heidi. I'm hanging out with her Friday. I apologize to her for not calling as much as I should.

I'm moving on Saturday. There is so much to do. I have to finish packing. I'm gonna miss Joe.

I really have nothing to say.

I love Ellen DeGeneres.
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Things to do: [17 Jun 2006|12:47pm]
[ mood | flower for you! ]

-Bake cake with Heidi?
-Beach with Andrea
-Pick up cake from Shaws
-Do laundry
-Show in Falmouth with Andrea

-Work 10-5
-Go to Boston
-Colin's birthday celebration

I'll be back on Cape on Wednesday... or Thursday... who knows.

This will be a great week!

It's finally summer!!!

::kiss me blind::

Oooo eeee ooooo. [03 Jun 2006|12:32am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Karaoke with Joe. So good.

Seeing Serena... also SO GOOD.

I'm so happy right now. So very happy.

1 kiss| ::kiss me blind::

Fun! [02 Jun 2006|12:17am]
[ mood | you spin me right round baby ]

The last week or so has been pretty much the most fun of the summer so far. I went camping for a night (which was definitely not long enough!) with Andrea, Ani, Joe, Marc, and other Joe. Quite the fantastic time, I must say. There was much fire building, cooking, wood chopping, jumpsuit wearing, Journey sing a long-ing, and of course beer drinking.

Today Heidi and I drove around and spent money... Taco Bell, Christmas Tree Shop, and Old Navy. So necessary, in many ways. Tomorrow we will do more of the same. I fucking love Heidi. Seriously. The Best.

There is an Aflac commercial on... I'd really like an Aflac duck of my own.

Going to Boston on Saturday for Bean's birthday. WEE! Yay Bean's 21st!

2 kisses| ::kiss me blind::

[29 May 2006|08:55pm]
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Look who we got our Hanes on now! [24 May 2006|01:05am]
[ mood | sunglasses are awesome ]

I have the day off tomorrow! YES! I will hopefully be going to the beach with Andrea or wandering around outdoors with Joe. OR BOTH! WHOOOOAAAAA.

I worked in the warehouse today. Terrible. I dropped a box on my face and cut my lip. It looks pretty badass.

Conan makes me laugh.

Andrea and I went to visit Joanna over the weekend and it was fantastic. I miss Joanna so much and I never get to see her. Jobs really get in the way of long-distance friendships. I will go back to Boston soon, though. I must!!

I just had a lovely conversation with Liz. What a great person, she is. So hilarious I can't stand it. We will hit Sam Diego's up soon. Hit. It. Up.

I also talked to Robbie tonight. A whopping three sentences. I miss him. He will be here soon. Then we will play!

SUMMER!!! Friendship! Beach! Beers! Happy!!

Oh! I'm going to Philly to visit Ian! WEEEE!!!!

1 kiss| ::kiss me blind::

Wait, what? [15 May 2006|11:29pm]
[ mood | my head hurts ]

I am so tired and my head is about to explode. I hate migraines.

Work is painful... So much lifting and folding and moving crap. It's killing my back, but oh well, I'm getting paid!

I've been spending a lot of time with Andrea and her friends from work. They are great kids. It's been a really good couple of weeks at home. I'm happy, for the most part. Andrea's having people over again tomorrow night. Should be a good time, indeed.

I sort of feel like I might be going nuts though. There are so many things that I am 100% confused about. I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing in almost all aspects of my life. I don't want to be a grown-up... hell no. Also, I need to let go of manyyy things, but I can't. I will at some point, but I can't see myself doing it anytime soon. It's terribly frustrating and pretty sad. I feel like I'm turning my back on many opportunities because I'm afraid to experience anything. Wahh wahh this sounds whiney.

I'm done. Sleepy. Work in the morn.

1 kiss| ::kiss me blind::

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